What I Needed.

Last night, I finally just got "to be." I got to enjoy myself. And really have a good time. It was the first time, in a very long time, that I really got to enjoy myself.

To begin with, our show was a lot of fun last night. Plenty of time to have fun. We saved all our really good stuff, for last night. When we played a HUGE show for a Charity event. We wanted to make sure, that everyone was enjoying themselves. And we weren't going to be happy, until we saw smiles on faces, and people dancing. Simple as that.

But afterward, we, the band, got to enjoy ourselves too. It was time to dance the night away! Yes, we get paid to mingle with the guests. But since the event was by invitation only, it meant, we got to let our hair down, when we were done performing. Something I needed to do.

I don't drink. But honestly, I didn't need to. Not this time around. I just had fun. I had a permanent dance partner in my friend/boss. And he was all for having a great time too! Why? Because he has been working just as hard as we have. The last 10 days, well we've all been going nonstop! So don't judge us for never leaving the dance floor. We were both up to having a good time, and forgetting all of our troubles. :)

Beyond the fact that we helped our friend/boss score an amazing DJ. Well, he knew the guy, but the band was the one that suggested him. We had some amazing music. I swear, you could feel the beat of the music, long after you had left. The dance floor was completely packed! And everyone enjoyed it. Until the sun rose, early this morning. Yes, folks, we enjoyed life a little. Then, we got to watch the sunrise, on the roof of the club we played at. :) Along with a very yummy breakfast!

At the end of the night, it was nice to know that we helped score this Charity, a 9 figure donation. Yes, 9 figures!!! All by playing some music, dancing, and thoroughly enjoying ourselves. It was an incredible feeling. Just to know how many kids this is going to help. That right there, makes it all worth it. Every single time!

But the best part for me, was just living in the moment. Having some fun. Dancing the night away. And forgetting my worries. The last few months have been beyond stressful! And I'm so glad that I got the chance to just be me. To live a little. And to enjoy a little bit of life. ♫

Playful

Ol' Mr. Blue Eyes, he is in an awfully good mood today! Smitten really. And it's nice to be around him. In general, our boss/friend is this amazing man. He has a heart bigger than Texas! And this great personality. It's honestly, such fun to be around him.



But today, he happens to be in such an amazing mood. Not sure why. OK, I know. His career is definitely on an upswing. Even with what unfolded yesterday. But I can tell you this much, I'm not asking al the details. I'm just glad that he is happy. And at peace with himself. I can't imagine living the life that he lives. Being under a microscope like he is. It has to be difficult. Having the world judge all of your failures and successes.

But for now, he gets to be a normal, thirty something year old man. Just hanging out with his friends. It's crazy to think, how we've become such great friends. How this entire band, went from just meeting him, to him hiring us, to all of us being such great friends. Crazy! But I'm glad that he seen our show in Vegas, all those years ago! ♫

Sugar and Spice #22

Sugar

♥Living out my dreams.
♥Having a boss that is this much fun. Honestly, he just makes life a lot more fun. And interesting.
♥Feeling the cars go 190MPH. :)
♥Being with my friends/band for 10 days!!!
♥Having my 'Lil Cowgirl here. And getting to spend so much time with her. So much fun!
♥When my Cari Bear came. It's nice to see life through her eyes.
♥Talking to my sister again. Even if it was brief. And only by text message.
♥The way these people really take us in. Like we are part of their family. And make us feel so welcomed, loved, and appreciated.
♥All the yummy Southern food that we've had!
♥The amazing house and room I've had the honor to stay in.
♥Going to work in a helicopter. Yes, you read right! It has been so much fun!
♥All the yummy clothes, shoes, and jewelry I get to wear. That is definitely a plus to our gigs. A girl could get used to it. :)
♥Antique shopping. In small, sleepy towns. With your very best friends!
♥Having M here to hangout with. It's also a plus that she does my hair and makeup. ♥And that we're Commadres! :)
♥Having a best friend. Who you can completely share you heart with. Without feeling like they are judging you. They allow you to be vulnerable. And give the best hugs imaginable!
♥Watermelon. Lots of it. Iced cold on a hot day.
♥Country music. Saves the soul. And makes me so happy!
♥Long and lazy naps. In the middle of hot days. In paradise.
♥Lake Norman. If you haven't been, you need to. Enough said.
♥Nature. The trees. And peace and quiet.
♥Dancing my heart out. Feels so good! It's something I need to do more often.
♥Having all these dogs sleep with me. Makes me think, I really want a dog. They're the best snugglers around!
♥Polka dot bikinis.
♥Playful and loving friends.

Spice

★Tatie being in the hospital.
★Family drama. I'm so sick of it. And people wonder...
★Blogger. When is my blog going to return to normal? Where are all my posts???
★Money issues. Why does higher education have to cost so much? I feel like it takes every cent I have...
★The last 1000 feet of the Coca Cola 600. Heartbreaking. Enough said.
★Last lap of the Indy 500. What the heck? It was crazy!
★Having only 2 days left here. I seriously want to move out here. Who knows, I might actually marry a Southern man one day...
★Not getting to see my bestie. Sad. Enough said.
★Missing all of my favorite TV shows.
★Not seeing my favorite little girls, for what seems like a lifetime. It's only been 2 weeks. But still.

Right at this moment, that's all I can think of. I'm sure there are more. But you know what, that sounds pretty good to me. And I have to get ready for work now. So Happy Sunday! ♫

Something From Years Gone By

Are you anything like me? You hunt out the local Antique Shops. No matter where you are. Especially in small towns. Especially in the South?

Earlier this week, M and I got to do a little bit of exploring. B took care of the kids. And we brought C along with us. These are the women that I spend most of my time with. You know, when we're traveling. M is not only my MUA, but one of my best friends. And C, she has become another of my best friends! By the way, she's expecting her first baby this fall!

So we decided to do a little bit of exploring. Our boss' Mom suggested a certain area. And that's exactly where we were headed! Why? Because we wanted a little bit of fun, to take back home! We spent hours and hours in these little towns. And we had a blast!

I don't think there was one shop that we drove by, and didn't go into. They sold everything! It was pure bliss. We tried on vintage clothes, looked through old books, and eyed some gorgeous furniture. I'd definitely get into some trouble, if I lived around here!

In the end, I bought a few cookbooks. I still haven't had much luck with a set of mixing bowls, a vintage suitcase, or a vintage doctor's bag. But they're on my list. And I'll continue to search for them. Oh, and I picked up an incredible dress. That was very exciting. Especially at $2! You have to love vintage shopping! ♫

Polka Dot Fun!

How fun is this bathing suit? I don't know what is more fun. The polka dots. The style and cut. Or the vibrant red. If you know anything about me, know this, I don't swim. Because I don't know how. I don't wear bathing suits. Or shorts for that matter. But this suit, I would wear it! Happy Saturday! ♫

Family

I'm extremely disappointed in my family. What the heck is going through their heads? My Tatie is sick. This is no time for a full out war!

I'm not claiming to be a saint. But let's be honest here. When someone is sick, and in the hospital, the family should pull together. Not pull apart. And attack each other.

I've been quietly sitting on my hands. I've texted my sister. And talked to my parents. I've asked questions about Tatie's care. Because I'm generally concerned. Being that I work in the field of medicine, have experience in nutrition, and a care about my Tatie...I ask questions.

Yes, I know about nutrients, diets, and the such. Hello! My degree, and field of primary study for my BS, is human nutrition. I'm not trying to be the doctor here. But there are some questions that you could ask. So don't bite my head off, I'm just trying to make sure my grandpa is getting the best possible care.

Another thing that has completely annoyed me this week, is how people seem to be screening who sees Tatie. Let's get real. He's got kids from 2 marriages. They're all his kids. Whether you like them or not. They have a right to see their father.

When my Dad was in the hospital, I never said anything. I welcomed my siblings. Because that is what my Dad needed. I may not like them. Or even respect them. But it's what made my Dad feel better. Happier. So why can't my aunts do the same thing?

Are you seriously not going to allow people to see Tatie, based on who has visited him. And how often? Are you serious? I for one, well, I have a Dad that has needed all the time and care I could give him. It's been just over 5 months since he almost died. Not to mention, I live 3 hours away. Work 100+ hours a week. And go to school. But I have managed to visit twice. But obviously, it's not enough for the "Guard Dogs."

So I leave it at that. You want to be that way, fine. My Tatie knows I love him. We've had some very interesting conversations. Like that day when Nanie wasn't home, and Tatie wanted to talk. He told me so much. Asked me so many questions. He knows what's going on. He's not dumb. And I know for a fact, that he knows that I love him, think about him, and pray for him every single day.

I've sent my grandparents countless packages. All to be returned. With the same handwriting. But I'm not letting it stop me. I know that I do it, out of the kindness of my heart. For my grandparents. For my Tatie. If this person doesn't like it, oh well. It's on your back, not mine. I know what I do for them. All the boxes and cards, I have them sitting in my closet. Let's not even talk about how many times I call. But you know, they screen the calls. And if they don't want to talk to you, well no one answers the phone. But at least I try.

For me, the straw that broke the camels back, was Thursday evening. Already, these people were rude to my Mom Wednesday. She went to visit her Dad. No one would let her see him. He was resting. But there were 3 visitors. Someone could have stepped out for a minute. Just so she could have seen her Dad. She didn't want to wake him. But no. That's how much care, love, and concern they have for my Mom.

Thursday evening. That was low. For everyone that was involved. Everyone that knew what was going on. After certain people went to my parents' house earlier. And then, to pull what they did. Are you serious? Are you that scared of the things you do, that you must attack someone else? Act like a damn fool?

Already, I had no respect for this particular woman. I haven't spoken to her in about 10 years. I will not let her touch me. I don't care if she wants to hug me, I want nothing to do with her. She knows why. I shouldn't have to respect someone who has no respect for me or my parents. Enough said. But to act the way she did. And get others involved. It's ridiculous!

So not only have you taken money from my parents, you harass them. That's ridiculous! Especially after everything that my parents have done for my grandparents. But how easily people forget. All those cigarettes, beer, food, time, energy, little trips, and such...and they forget. They forget the time spent.

Then to accuse my Mom of this nonsense. She hasn't spoken to her brother since October. At a family party. And those sisters...it's been years. Since they tried to "take down the family." Yes, years! As in at least 4...if not longer.

But when you are a "scaredy cat" and are trying to hide, I guess you just lash out. Blame anyone that is around you. There's not enough sense, to realize the harm you are doing. You are tearing apart this family. As far as I'm concerned, I have Tatie, Uncle John, Auntie Ronnie, and a bunch of cousins. The rest, well, if I never see them again, it wouldn't bother me.

To have someone waiting for you, to attack you, and yell at you like a wild animal, that is crazy. For people to be throwing things at you, and waving around canes like that...that's nonsense! Why? Because someone else is after you? Maybe you should research this a little better. Really look at who is attacking you. And going after you. It's not the sister that you are blaming.

It's not the first time that people have hurt my Mom. People in her family. That are supposed to love her. There was that time, when my Uncle was dying. And everyone got together to celebrate his birthday. The purposefully left my Mom out. And all those holiday celebrations. But the crazy thing is, the people in this family that matter, they know that she loves them. They know that I love them. That's all that matters. Not these crazy women.

The sad part is, they are tearing apart this family. Do you know something? I have a cousin, that I heard was looking for a better job. I made some calls, talk to a bunch of people. And I got her an interview for this amazing job. I literally got the call this morning. But now...do I dare call her? Because if I do, will I be the next one they attack? So I decided, I'm just going to let it go. Because there's too much, for me, to lose in the end. And it's not worth it.

That hurts. That's the sad part. Because it's hurting people that aren't even involved in the main family problems. Why can't my cousins go see our grandpa? A cousin that helped build their home. Why can't my Mom see my grandpa? Her Dad. Or my Uncle. This is what is ridiculous.

But we are not the ones to decide what is right or wrong. There is a judgement day for that. A day when you have to face the Lord, and explain the things you've done. There is no hiding from him. He knows what you've done. No matter how well you think you've hidden it. He knows.

For these people, that feel superior to the rest of us, it's not worth it. You're hurting the family more, than you are helping it. Does it make you feel so good, because you attack someone? I'm not like my Mom. I wouldn't have taken that. Maybe you will call my a B, but I don't care. People need to respect people, in order to receive respect back.

For my family that is innocent in these matters, I love you. We may not see each other often. May only speak a few words, but I love you. You are in my heart. And will always be there. There is no changing that. I love you.

And all that is left to do, is pray for Tatie. Pray that he recovers. And that he is allowed to live, his last few years in peace, surrounded by love, and in a way that makes him happy. That's all that matters. No matter how much people don't want to see it, his health and happiness is all that matters. And every single day, that is what I pray for. ♫

Friday Fill In #21

This week's Friday Fill-Ins are just perfect! Like someone was reading my heart. Or maybe took a look at my soul.

1. This week I prayed a lot.

2. The heat returns.

3. It's all about music, fun and laughter around here.

4. I wish I could go out in the sun.

5. I demand respect.

6. A good path, it's filled with love, honor, and respect.

7. And as for the weekend, tonight I'm looking forward to our show, tomorrow my plans include a little fun with some fast cars and Sunday, I want to have fun and enjoy the day! ♫

A Plate of Yummy!

I'm not feeling so hot today. I'm thinking, it's allergies. The wind out here, well it's ridiculous! And it doesn't appear to be getting any better. :( But you know what, life has to go on. And I'm going to make the best of it.

Our boss is working right now. And we worked last night. We have another gig tonight. And I'm just tired! Ya, we earn some good paychecks for these gigs. But we work HARD! So I decided to indulge a little this afternoon...



I found this picture doing a google search. I can't even remember what I was searching for. But doesn't this look yummy! Well, I took over the kitchen, and I made a big 'ol bowl of this yummy goodness! My 'Lil Cowgirl and I, well we had 2 bowls each! Yes, it was that good. Now, I think we both have an afternoon nap on our minds. :) ♫

Watermelon and the Band

We had a few hours off today. You know, to do a little bit of nothing. Which lead to some hilarious conversation. But that's what you get with these guys. This band is hilarious! And there may have been 8 watermelons involved too!

At one point, one of the guys asked, if seeds really do fall from the watermelon slices. You know, like on the skits from Sesame Street. Well, that raised all kinds of stories. And before long, we had a seed spitting contest going. There were many different techniques used. And in the end, I was the "Watermelon Champ!"

We should probably check back with our boss, in a couple of months, and see how many watermelon vines he has growing. Yes, 8 watermelons, 1 band, and a hilarious seed spitting contest. That's a lot of seeds, even in that large field.

What else do you do on 200 acres of land? On your day off. With one of the most famous athletes? Ya, I know. But we had a blast! The South, well they grew 'em better! Everything! And everyone. :)

Now, I'm off to do some cooking. I promised the guys a yummy dinner, before our gig. See, I cook. And I'm not entirely sure who cleans up. But I know it's not me! :) I'll be in hair and makeup. Happy Wednesday! ♫

Letting Love In

The thing about life is, it's always changing. It never stays the same. Therefore, we must change with it.

Almost a year ago, my youngest sister wanted to meet for lunch. Or something like that. But I wasn't feeling it. At that point, it had been almost 9 years since I had last seen her. And honestly, my heart was not in the right place for reconnecting.

I've struggled a lot with siblings in the past. The last 2 years, they've tested me more times than I'd like to admit. Generally, they've just hurt me. And I just wasn't in the place to deal with another round of hurt. Not from a sibling at least.

But yesterday, my heart melted a little. Maybe it was the news about Tatie. Or the fact that I've been surrounded by this amazing family. My boss' family. And you feel all the love. And I said to myself, "I want that relationship. I want to be close to at least one of my siblings. I want to trust them."

So I extended the invitation. At least the thought of it. Plans are not finalized. But the wheels are in motion. And I have a little secret to tell you. I'm super excited about it! I really want to see my big sister. I want to reconnect. I want to have a relationship with her.

It may sound crazy. Or like I'm nuts. But I do want these relationships. I was raised as an only child. And honestly, most of my siblings would rather I die right here, right now, than to even talk to me. But I've learned. In 28 years, that it's not about me. It's about family situations.

So if there is a way, to just build one healthy relationship, I'm going to try. I want that. I want to have someone to share life with. To include in my family. I want a sibling to share with. Most of all, I just want a chance with my big sister. ♫

Getting Ready for a Long Day...

Today, my MUA and I decided to try a little something different. We wanted to have a little fun. But neither of us wanted to spend hours and hours getting ready. And we needed something that could go from "business attire" to "formal." And quickly.

Mrs. M, well she liked this hairstyle. And it's what we settled on. Along with some "natural" makeup, with a little "twist." I also have 5 outfits for the day. Oh ya, it's gonna be a long night!

But today, we're going to be a part of "history." And honestly, it's going to be so fun! I really do like this annual trip/gig that the band does. We get to be a part of something special. Now I just need to finish getting ready! ♫

Sugar and Spice #21

Sugar

♥Family. The most important thing that God gave us. I'm so grateful for my parents. :)
♥Celebrating E's graduation. We're all so proud! It's a really big deal.
♥Aprons. They just make me happy. Especially vintage ones.
♥Good country songs. With incredible beats. And GREAT lyrics!
♥The best friends anyone could ask for.
♥The most amazing boss who could ask for!
♥My love of crochet. :)
♥Seeing cousins that I see far less than I'd like. Love seeing them! I wish we could spend more time together.
♥Seeing my Dad get stronger every single day!
♥Dion's salads and fruit. Have you tried them? We've been having a "love affair" for at least 20 years now!
♥Fitting into my clothes for our shows. :)
♥Talented friends. That would be musicians, MUAs, and stylists! Love them all!
♥Private planes. Do I have to add more to that? They're AMAZING!
♥Visiting my old high school. It brought back lots of good memories. I never realized how much I really did enjoy that "chapter" of my life.
♥Delicious Southern food!
♥That crook'd smile. ;)
♥Fast cars.
♥Dancing. I think it's in my blood. Honestly!
♥Being a Latina. It's amazing! In all your glory. :)
♥Beautiful Carolina. How I love you! You sure are beautiful. And you make some handsome men. With gorgeous blue eyes!
♥Blue Eyes. Speechless. Enough said.
♥Spending lots and lots of time with My 'Lil Cowgirl! :)
♥Crisp, cool sheets...after a long show.
♥Warm bubble baths in the morning.
♥Looking into his eyes. As we sang that duet. And really feeling the music. ;)
♥Getting the chance to perform. Getting paid for it. And thanking God that he gave me the gift of music.

Spice

★Insane amount of driving I did early this week. Ugh! I'm so tired of driving on the highway.
★The way my AC stops when I'm going uphill. What's with that? Especially on those long hills.
★The amount of teasing I go through. Seriously! What's up with that?
★Can we say the heat? This is out of control! The weather is pretty crazy.
★Listening to people tell me...that we really should date...
★Packing, unpacking, suitcases. Why can't I be like Bewitched? Life would be so much easier!
★Crazy siblings. The ones that complain that you don't talk to them. But they don't make the effort either!
★Standing in ridiculous lines.
★Not finding flowers anywhere...
★The pharmacy...
★Blogger. When will my blog return? What kind of maintenance are you doing?

As you can see, there has been a lot going on. Lots of traveling! Lots and lots of work. At least the second part of the week. And a lot more to come. But I've really had an amazing week. I have to say, I'm blessed. ♫

God's Glory

Bright and early this morning, I decided that I wanted to go on a run. Before everyone got up. I knew it would be a late morning for my friends. Especially since our show went well until this morning.

But I wanted to run. To be part of nature. To inhale all the beauty, that the Earth has to give. So while the house was silent and still, I was putting on my running shoes. One dog in tow. Making my way out, to the Carolina Wilderness.

Ol' Blue Eyes must of heard me. I was not far from the house, when he ran up behind me. This man, is definitely not a runner, but decided to go with me. We ran. In silence. Taking in the beauty of this place. All of it. Quietly.

The only sounds came from our feet hitting the ground. Our breathing was perfectly in rhythm. Birds were singing. The breeze was light. It was the most perfect morning. I've not felt that refreshed in such a long time! And it felt good.

To have sweat running down your back. Your heart race. The sound of your own blood, go through your ears. To have all of your senses working at 100%. And to be taking in so much of God's glory. It was amazing!

Then we cleared some trees, and came to a clearing. All you could see, was the beautiful lake! Oh Dear Lord! How do people ever leave this area? I'd be no good to anyone, if I lived here. I'd want to run every morning. I'd want to spend my days lakeside. And my evenings cooking. What a life!

Well, my friend and I just sat in silence. Sharing an orange, and some water. Taking it all in. I realize now, his eyes, they're that same amazing shade of blue. And as incredible as I felt, after 10 miles of mountain running, he was so much more refreshed than I was. As if, the Earth was feeding his soul.

We were definitely in God's church. In his Kingdom. Taking in all of God's glory. But it didn't prevent us from church. Which we barely made it too. But this little church, in the middle of nowhere, set back 50 years, it was perfect. I tell you, there's not much about Carolina that I don't love. Not much at all.

And now that all my friends are awake and fed, we've made our plans for the afternoon. Lot's of nothing, by the lake. What do you think? Sounds like paradise to me! I hope you have an amazing day too! It truly is God's Day! Happy Sunday! ♫

Made Him Smile That Smile...

To say that my boss/friend has been a little stressed out...well that's just the understatement of the year! No lie! And he was looking a little stressed out. Not too long ago...

By the way, the entire band is melting. It's that crazy hot out here. But we're here, supporting our boss/friend. And since he's been incredibly understanding of my situation this week, and let's just face it...nice to me, I knew I needed to make him laugh. :)

What I didn't anticipate was...that smile! You know, the crook'd smile. Sly. Boyish. The one that says it all. While not saying anything at all. Well, that's what I got. Maybe I shouldn't have picked this song to dance andd sing to...



But I did. And we all laughed. As the band pounded out rhythms. On trash cans no less! And I sang my own version. All while making him laugh. Pre-work. Y'all I didn't want to distract him that much. Yes, we have a playful relationship. But he still has a job to do. He did have a good laugh. Especially when I convinced a little L, his nieces, and my Lil' Cowgirl to do some dancing with me.

It definitely got his mind off of things. My boots are little dusty. And I'm sure there are some people trying to figure out if all the people from the southwest are this silly. Um, ya we are! And now, we're all ready for tonight's BIG event. I'm pretty pumped up myself! How can we call this work? Why do people pay us for this again? Please tell me. Happy Saturday! ♫

Friday Fill In #20

I'm totally enjoying the Carolina weather! It's amazing out here. And I'm really looking forward to the next week full of work and performing. I LOVE this band! Now it's time for some Friday Fill-Ins.

1. I see lots of very fast cars.

2. Head scratch.

3. They begin to make me, believe in love and marriage.

4. I was so naive, so many years earlier.

5. This I know: my friends, are so much closer to me, than my family.

6. We're having Carolina BBQ for dinner.

7. And as for the weekend, tonight I'm looking forward to some performing, tomorrow my plans include lots of fast cars and Sunday, I want to go for a run through the Carolina hills! ♫

Thinking About...

Do I? Or don't I? Cut my hair, that is. M is here and I'm tempted. It's so HOT out here! And I've wanted to cut my hair for a while now. Maybe I'll just go with it. Nothing too crazy. But get some of the length of it off! You know, maybe like this...



What do you think? A little more sassy. More of a style. Honestly, for the last 9 months, my hair is generally up. In some sort of a messy do. Because I don't know what to do with it. And I don't have the time to straighten it every single day! Maybe I need a cut. It would be fun. ♫

Salty, Sweet, Delicious!

Do you see this brownie? Yum! That's all I can say. It's salty, sweet, and so delicious! My mouth is watering...just thinking about it. I might just have to bake some. Sometime today. You know, for all my friends/band mates. Since we're working together. For the next 12 days or so. :)

Because of my niece's graduation, I'm a little late getting to the gig. :( But they understand. And so does my boss. But this would definitely score me some points. Yummy brownies. I think they'd forget all about me missing 2 nights of gigs. ;)

To be 100% honest, I just want some of these brownies. hahaha You know me and my sweet tooth. But these are just extra yummy! I think it's because they're slightly salty too. Anyway that you put it, have a Happy Thursday! ♫

New Graduate

On Tuesday, I feverishly drove to my hometown. Why? My niece had her "Robing and Awards Ceremony." I got to town about 2 hours prior. My parents and I went to have dinner. Then parked at least a block from the school gym. The gym that I spent so many hours in. You know, fine tuning Cheerleading routines...

We sat through about 2 hours of graduation anticipation. We watched my niece get "Robed." We listened to all the awards and scholarships that were given. Watched part of the 2011 Senior Class Video. Listened to speeches, and performances. Looked at the changes in my old high school. And enjoyed the evening.

Because we couldn't find E, we called. As we walked through the sand. Trying to keep my Dad vertical. And trying to make it back to the van, before it got too dark. We met my nieces at a parking lot. Said a quick hi and bye. And we went our separate ways.

This afternoon, I was like a "Chicken without a Head." Trying to get it all done. A quick run to the Dollar Tree, for party supplies. Two trips to the pharmacy. A literal "run" to Walgreen's for some cards. And a quick drive across the street for flowers. Hello? It took 6 stops to find flowers. But it was worth it!



Why? Because we have a new graduate in our family. My niece, E. She graduate 10 years, and 3 days after I did. From the same high school. Wearing the same royal blue color. Earning the same degree. It was incredible being there.

It was no easy task getting there. There was the idea of finishing up the "work day." Remember all the errands? Getting flowers. Changing clothes. Grabbing a quick dinner. Getting to the ceremony. Standing in the line. Thank God for the handicapped line. All those people. Pushing. Shoving. Just trying to get there. And finally, we sat in our seats. Spent forever looking for anyone we knew. Spent at least 10 minutes trying to find our graduate.

But it was worth it. Such a proud moment. For the entire family. Her Mom, made sure she got to this place. To be a graduate. My parents were such a big part of E's life. I remember all those days, of taking her to school. Heck, I remember helping her with her homework. I wonder if she remembers counting beans in the office? :)

E is a graduate. Forever a member of the class of 2011. A Mustang. And guess what? She was the happiest, I've seen her, in a very long time! I'm glad. She deserves it. She has worked so hard to get to this point. Now, it's time to celebrate her accomplishments!

We have just over 2 weeks to plan her party. In the middle of all of this, I'll be in NC. Working. To come back, and go straight to cooking and cleaning. But out of all of my nieces and nephews...there are no 2 more important to me than, E and N. Yes, these 2 girls mean the world to me! And just think, in 2 years, we'll be doing this for N. I can't wait!

It's so funny. How much I had forgotten about my own graduation. Only to be remembered over the last 2 days. It's an honor to know that my niece and I will forever be graduates of WM. To know that we accomplished such a big task. And made our own footprints in the sand.

Also, a big Congrats to my cousin. Who also graduated tonight. I didn't know he was graduating until last night. But we are all so proud of you! And E, you made us all so proud. Remember to keep chasing after your dreams! ♫

Blue

It's funny. When ballet flats became the "it shoe," I hated them! All of them. These days, it's either stilettos or ballet flats. Funny how things come full circle.

Well, I've been hunting for some fun shoes. Something bright. Full of "life." I'm thinking, I may have inherited the "shoe gene" from my Mom. :) But honestly, they just make me happy. Especially when much of my "work attire" is pretty boring. Pencil skirts, button up blouses, blazers...you know. Not that fun.



Then when I get to just hangout, I lean towards leggings and big shirts. Or jeans and t-shirts. So shoes, they're the "party and fun" part of my outfits. And honestly, I've been so inspired by all the Mexican Shoe Stores around here. Now, if only I could find the perfect blue shoes...♫

I LOVE this Apron!

This picture instantly made me smile. And it got the wheels turning in my head. Like...I can make this. By know, you should know about my "love affair" with aprons, crochet, and all things vintage.

This picture, well, it just sums up everything. All together, in this little image. And those creative juices, well, they are begging me to create something like this. Maybe in a fun pink color. With a touch of lime green. Or teal with red. The possibilities are endless!

As the weather is getting warmer, I want to be "nesting." Have this urge to really make my house feel like "home." And I want to fill my home with lots of handmade things. If you could see my list, you'd just laugh! It's that long. :) Happy Monday! ♫

Operation

I don't know about you, but I really do enjoy playing board games. I've always really enjoyed them. And now, I'm sharing my love of board games with the "itty bitties." We've got a pretty good collection going on at my house. Everything from Scrabble to the Disney Princess. And don't forget Cootie!

Most of the girls just LOVE to play Candyland. It was one of my favorites growing up too. Until I was about 5. But that story is for another time and another day. One of Care Bear and I's favorite game to play is Operation. She just loves it! And honestly, until a few years ago, I'd never played it!



We can easily get lost for hours and hours, just playing operation. Using our "skills." And just laughing at one another. Why did I not know about this game when I was younger? Maybe I wouldn't have been so opposed to dissection, in my high school Anatomy class. :)



And recently, I've run across this game. For the more "itty bitties." "My First Operation." More fitted for little hands. So as to not frustrate them. Now I just need to buy it! :P

What about you? Are you a "Closeted Board Game Lover" too? What's your favorite? I'm a HUGE fan! And I'm always looking for more games. Even if it's just me and a bunch of little girls playing. Ya, I'm the cool "Tia." ♫

Friendship

The word friend, it sometimes leaves me speechless. Utterly speechless. I have some of the best friends. Friends that people would die to have. That are just amazing. As much as I try and do for them, they do 10X more for me.

Then I have these "odd ball" friends. The ones that seem to hurt me every way possible. They attack your character. Everything about you. They put you down. And only look for ways, in which they can hurt you.

These are the friends that completely shock me! They tend to be the ones I do the most for. Or at least make the most effort for. I call them. Try to see them. But nothing is every reciprocated. And I'm left feeling stupid.

One of these friends, just had a birthday. And I just didn't feel like calling her. I was spent. And just not in the mood. So I sent a text. Nothing fancy. Simply, "Happy Birthday." The next thing I know, she's called me. Every single day. For a week! What the heck?

I don't know. I was only trying to be nice. It was her birthday. But honestly, I was done with her. Done with having her as a friend. She infuriated me. And now, it seems like she wants to try. Makes me feel horrible. But I'm spent. And over it. Ready to move on.

But it makes me feel horrible. I wonder, what do people really think friends are? I know, we all have a bad day, from time to time. But to consistently treat a person horribly. Well, I'm not so sure about that.

I guess it just makes me appreciate my good friends even more. I really do love them. The ones that are real friends. That I can count on. You know the kind. They listen when your day isn't going so well. When you're sick, they remember to bring you some soup. And when it's 100 degrees outside, they always check to see if you are alive. You cry together, laugh together, and from time to time...tease each other. Those are the friends that I need. The rest, I think it's time to purge my life of them. ♫

Beautiful Blooms

For months now, I've been wanting to make these beautiful blooms. I've seen them made into everything from pins, to hairbands, to wreaths. I'm just in love with their delicate structure.



I can just imagine all the possibilities! Finally a use for so much scrap fabric. You know, I've got more than enough of that. :)



Maybe I can make a few. And give them as gifts. You know, I'm a little behind on Mother's Day presents. And these blooms can be made into some beautiful gifts.



Now to just find some time. You know, to make a little magic. I'm so inspired. All I want to do is sit down and make beautiful blooms. Happy Wednesday! ♫

Blame My Momma

I've become a little "obsessed" with nail polish. And all I can say is, blame it on my momma. :) For my entire life, I've watched my mom polish her nails. She's got these pretty nails. And they grow amazingly long.

My mom has not always been one to wear makeup. Actually, until I was 21, she had 1 makeup bag. With a few things inside. A tube of mascara, an eyelash curler, 2 eyeshadow duos, 2 lipsticks, and a blush. That's it! But, my mom, well at any given time, she's had 20+ bottles of nail polish. :)

And I'm loving all the bright colors. In fact, a friend of mine, just gave me these 4 Essie colors. Let's just say, I'm having fun with them! And I'm looking forward to an entire summer of bright nails! ♫

On My Wishlist...

I've always wanted a subscription to Crochet Today. Every issue is loaded with amazing patterns. And great articles. I know, I probably sound like the biggest nerd on earth! But I just love this magazine. Maybe one day, I'll be getting this magazine in my mailbox. Until then, you'll find me at the local library. Reading this beauty! ♫

Sugar and Spice #19

Sugar

♥My Mom. I've been blessed to have her as my Mom. She just makes life better, in a million different ways.
♥Lots of traveling. Lots of fun. Lots and lots of amigos to enjoy it all with!
♥Being blessed with so many Maestros!
♥Celebrating mi Cultura in so many different ways. This week has been so rich with tradition! I just love it!
♥Beautiful music. Amazing dancers. And delicious comida.
♥A few minutes of "quiet time" to read.
♥Lots and lots of time with Mis Ahijadas.
♥Celebrating Mi Florecita's 1st birthday.
♥Yummy Mexican candy.
♥Talking to old friends on the phone.
♥Finishing my Mom's presents, on time! :)

Spice

★Being so busy...that I haven't really slept in about 10 days.
★Border violence.
★Forgetting water on Thursday. Bad day to forget. And it was so hot!
★Wearing 30 layers of clothes and a bullet proof vest. It made for a odd Cinco de Mayo show. But it was necessary.
★Watching that guy wreck his car. I felt super bad for him. But there was nothing I could do.
★Having to leave my hometown in 2 days. I just got here. I'm sick of driving!
★Forgetting to bring the Mother's Day presents I bought for some close friends.

This has not been the easiest of weeks. But today has truly been an amazing day. I knew I had to see my Mom. And a 3 hour drive, well that wasn't about to stop me. I enjoyed spending the time with my parents. And being a part of my Mom's special day. I hope she enjoyed it. Happy Mother's Day Mom! ♫

Happy Mother's Day!

Happy Mother's Day to all the moms out there! And to everyone who is like a mom to someone else. You know who you are. You're always amazing.

Our moms, grandmas, and aunts are so important to our character. The help define the people we grow up to be. They teach how to nurture and how to love. They teach us to be better. And how to get through the tough times with grace.

As an adult, I've become so close to my Mom. She's been there when I've needed a shoulder to cry on, a soft place to land, or to just share a laugh. I cherish all those little moments. From the time we spend cooking with each other, to crafting late into the night. I love you Mom! I hope you have a wonderful day! ♫

Yum!

Let's take some time...and talk about one of my favorite candies. Yum! I can't even remember when I first had these. But they were delish! So much so, I went out and bought a few bags. Then, my friends gave me a few more. And before I knew it, I had 12 bags in my freezer.

Honestly, at times, these candies, were the only thing in my freezer! That just makes me laugh. Especially since, I'm lucky to eat, 5 Kisses in a single week. But they're so yummy!

And they're even better in the peanut butter Kiss cookies. It's like heaven! I honestly don't know what it is. But they're incredible. I just wish that Hershey's would make them a permanent candy. ♫

Peace and Quiet

It's funny. I yearn, honestly yearn, for peace and quiet. It's funny because my life is so chaotic. So full and jam packed. I have little time to myself. Even less time to be in peace and quiet. But I yearn for that time.

I'm one of those people, honest to God, that wouldn't go crazy if I lived in the middle of nowhere. I would actually thrive. If I went days without seeing people, it wouldn't bother me. Not one bit. Why? I have absolutely no clue. But it wouldn't.

That part that makes me laugh is, I'm constantly surrounded by people. Constantly! At work, at school, even at church. And I thoroughly enjoy it. I enjoy helping people. Nursing babies back to health. Talking to their parents. Experiencing new things through music.

But I'm a "loner." To the deepest part of my soul. I like to be alone. I like to sit and reflect. Listen to myself from the inside out. I like to write in my journal, every morning. Without fail. I enjoy long, quiet runs. And digging in my garden at sunrise. It's not out of the ordinary, to find me quietly sitting in my backyard, at midnight.

Or even curled up with my favorite book. The house dead silent. Just me and my latest book. I yearn for that. The time when my soul rejoices! And actually heals itself. The time when I am free to just be me. When I listen to my thoughts. Not the world.

I don't get much of this. If I'm lucky, I still 5 minutes a week. For just me. Without all that outside noise. Even my commutes are jammed with phone calls, studying, or practice. So maybe, that's why I long for these times. When I can shut the world out.

The next month, well it's going to be chaos. Final exams, clinicals, presentations, traveling, work, hospital stuff, taking care of family, time with friends, and lots of celebrations. But I'm promising myself this, in a month, I'm shutting the world out. Even if it's just so I can stare at my flower garden. ♫

Friday Fill In #18

It's been a busy week. And I feel like I'm going in about 20 different directions. But I know that it's all going to work out. So please link up your Friday Fill Ins. I'd love to read them!

1. Grey's Anatomy is my favorite TV show (or movie) because I can relate.

2. Go to page 45 of the book you're reading or of the book closest to you; go to the 6th paragraph and make a sentence out of 7 words from it: They were watching my life, using it as an example, to shape their own lives.

3. I am hungry right now.

4. I enjoy quiet and long walks.

5. Take some time to smell the roses.

6. Everyone needs a bit of love and pain.

7. And as for the weekend, tonight I'm looking forward to more gigs, tomorrow my plans include lots of Mariachi work and Sunday, I want to go see my Mom! ♫

Feliz Cumpleanos Mi Florecita

Mi Florecita,

It's been a whole ano since you were born! You've brought so much joy, love, and happiness to everyone around you. Your padres, they prayed and prayed for you. And 1 year ago, they're prayers came true.

I was never so blessed as the day we baptized you. Seeing your innocence. Reminding me that there is so much good in the world. That we can all make this a better place, just with a little bit of love.

This past year, I've enjoyed watching you grow. Taking you on adventures to the park. Dancing with you at our gigs. Showing you all the Santos at church. Nothing has made me more excited. Then to help you grow into a blessed ninita.

As much fun as we've all had, I know that the future holds so much more for us. So many more adventures. Many more memories to make. And lots of time to cherish. I can't wait until you really start talking. And we can have tea parties in the grass. Or read all the books in the library.

Today, I just pray that our Dear Lord watches over you. Makes you stronger. And helps us all, to guide you in your life. This is a day for celebrations. And for giving thanks. Because God sent us a very special gift. He sent us you to love!

Feliz Cumpleanos!

Besitos,
Tu Nana ♫

Happy Cinco de Mayo!

I just wanted to wish everyone a Happy Cinco de Mayo! We've been working since yesterday afternoon. And we're scheduled to be going well into tomorrow morning. I'm more than positive that Americans celebrate more than the Mexicanos.

Pero, we're having tons of fun! It's not 48 hours straight, of performing for us. But it's a long schedule. We do get to enjoy the yummy comida. And the other performers. Including many of the Mariachi's ninitos. Most are dancers.

We're enjoying ourselves. Being safe. And working. Not much more you can ask for. It's really an incredible event. I really do love this city! And all the cultura that is packed into our lives. Now I'm off to enjoy some yummy birthday cake. ♫

Tea for a Princess

Recently, Mi Princesa and I were looking at some crochet patterns. OK, I was searching for some new patterns. And she happened to be sitting in my lap. That's when we happened to stumble on this beauty.



Tea anyone? Looks like I need to start crocheting. :) Mi Princesa already has a tea set that I made her. But I have to say, this pattern is a million times cuter! What do you think? ♫

Seeing Love...

Everything about this dress makes me smile. I don't know what it is. But I really do LOVE it! Everything. The silhouette. The color. And especially, the polka dots. Now, if I just had some extra money... ♫

Reflecting

After the busy, nonstop, and exciting week that I had, I want to just stop and relax. To reflect on the good in my life. The positives. All that I've accomplished. All that I've been blessed with.

I often hear things like, you have it so easy. Your parents do it all for you. Blah, blah, blah. But I don't think people realize, just how much I work. How I am the one that foots the bills. I pay for school. I do those things. To save money, I walk to school every single day. Even when we had snow. Or when it's 104 degrees. I do that.

But I'm OK with it. Because I'm an adult. And it's what adults do. They take care of themselves. It's not always easy. Heck, there are days. Very bad days. When I just want to give up. When the hospital stuff is just too much. When I've been pushed to my limits. Held by gunpoint. When I have stacks of homework to do. And I carry the weight of the world on my shoulders. When I'm tired. When I'm barely able to buy a box of macaroni. But I never give up.

God has such grace for us. Kindness, love, and support. He keeps us going, even when we can't keep ourselves going. He sends us special people. Amazing friends. Great mentors. Even perfect strangers. All to show us the way. To help us on our journeys. To love us. To help us. And even to shoulder some of our burdens.

I know this first hand. I've experienced it. I'm not looking to be any one's hero, or angel. But I will help people, as much as I possibly can. Because I know I have a God to depend on. A God that is there for me. Even when I feel so alone. So I'll take care of my friends' kids, on those days when I know they need a break. I'll buy groceries for a hungry mom and her kids. Even if it means I go home with nothing. And it's me, that makes all those things for the kids in PEDS, the PICU, and the NICU. Because it makes me feel better, deep inside, were it matters most.

Maybe it's the fact, that I spent almost a week, with truly kindhearted people. That wanted nothing more, than to share their wealth. And I don't mean money. I mean time, love, and talents. I spent so much time with my favorite itty bitties. Just soaking up, all of their love. Learning so much from these innocent children.

But today, I woke up, with a new attitude. One of purity, honesty, open heartiness, full of love, and wanting to do better. I've struggled with a heavy heart. Especially towards my family, for a while now. Maybe it's the way they put me down, the things they say about me, or just the way I'm treated. But I've carried this heavy heart, for far too long now.

I want to be better. I want to do better. I want to be a better person. I want to be a forgiving person. Not for the other people, but for me. I want to let go. And let things just be. I want to be a happier person.

Over the years, I've learned how to do that with friends. To let them go. Even when I didn't want to. Realizing, the ones that truly care, well, they never really go away. A great example is My Music Man. As much as I have pushed him away, he's fought to be part of my life. He truly wants to be in my life.

And I need to do this. I need to be graceful enough to stop holding the hurt. For those siblings that honestly hurt me, so painfully so, I need to let go of it. It doesn't mean that I have to tolerate their actions. But I also don't have to hold on to all of that hurt and pain.

Most of all, I need to continue to pray for God's love and guidance. To allow him to show me the way. To lead me towards the good in life. To help me make my talents stronger. If it's medicine I'm meant to work in, I know, God will help me find the way. Finances and all. He's always been here.

But as much as I need and want to do all of this, I need to remember me. I need to start putting me and my needs ahead of others. Because I never do. How can I be a better person, if I never work on me? How can I be strong enough to take care of others, if I'm not taking care of me? I need to learn how to be better to myself.

Days like today, remind of how blessed I am. But they also show me how far I still need to go. God's journey for us, well it takes a lifetime. We're never really done. But with each new step, we grow. Stronger, more loving, and into better souls. ♫

Fiesta Mexicana!

This picture can pretty much sum up my week. It was a good week. But a very busy week! Lots of teaching and performing. Lots of learning. Lots of singing. Being part of this big weekend, well, it takes a lot of hard work.

I had the pleasure of performing for this Big Mariachi Show. Filled with greats, giants, and lots of Maestros. Men that I respect more, than you'll ever know. That have taught me about my cultura, and the musica. That have taken me under their wings, and have shown me the ropes.

Seeing all of my favorite little girls learning, only added to the experience. Seeing them learn about our cultura. Carrying on the traditions. It was amazing. But sharing the stage, was just magical.

This has been a week filled with music. Lots of it. The best of the very best. Lots of trajes. Many Maestros. Everything oozing with the spice of the Vida Mexicana! I enjoyed every second of the week and weekend. Every single second!

It didn't hurt that so many of my friends were here too. Sharing the stage. Teaching alongside me. Laughing. Sharing their families. Enjoying our cultura. It was magical. It was just magical to see how traditions are past from one generation to another. These shows and conferences never get old. Never! Que Viva la Vida Mexicana! ♫

Sugar and Spice #18

Sugar

♥Yummy Cracker Barrel breakfast.
♥Time with my family.
♥Hometown cooking.
♥Beautiful flowers.
♥Traveling. Even if it's for work. I just love to see new places.
♥The world of Mariachi. I can't imagine my life without it. Or the people I've met along the way.
♥Time with Mi Princesa. She is a doll! And My 'Rella. She's a miracle. I just love my ahijadas.
♥Lots and lots of performing. Mariachi singing. And a chance to take the big stage.
♥Deep belly laughs. Goodness how I love spending time with my amigos. All of them!
♥Trajes. The tradition of them. And the honor to wear one.
♥Learning from the Mariachi Giants. The Maestros. That live and breath the music.
♥My Music Man. For as much as we've gone through. He's still one of my very best friends.
♥Strawberry waffles in bed.
♥Fancy hotels.
♥The Royal Wedding.
♥Remembering B. She is missed. We all loved her so much!
♥Being part of all of this. It's history. It's the passing of the torch.
♥Springtime in the desert.
♥Watching my favorite little girls dance!

Spice

★Sweating this much. This early in the year. It's going to be a hot summer!
★Not having B with us anymore.
★Having to leave my hometown so quickly.
★Realizing I forgot some key pieces of clothing. Having to go shopping for them. And then having to explain to my friends why I was late to rehearsal. :(
★These stupid little hairs that I hairspray to death. And they still stick up! I HATE them!
★Hat hair. After wearing a big 'ol sombrero. And dealing with crunchy hairspray hair. :(
★Still not dealing well with the time change. What's with this? I have no clue.
★Family issues.
★Older siblings who assume they know it all. They have no clue! But what can you do...
★Getting a wake up call. That I didn't request. Then the front desk realizes they have the wrong room...at 3AM!!!

That's about it folks. It's been a crazy busy week! I'm ready for some sleep. But we still have some work to do. The work of a musician, is never really done. ♫